Maundy Thursday Bread

This morning as my Bluetick Coonhound snores, sleeping in the one tiny sunspot on the hardwood floor, adorned by the beats of Prince, I’ve been baking sourdough bread. My purpose for baking, I thought, was for the Communion table in tonight’s service where we remember Christ’s Last Supper and where we bend down and wash each other’s feet. But what I realized as I was baking is that I needed the process of bread-making for my own heart.

I became thankful for this slow, rhythmic process this morning as it slowed my thoughts, mind and heart to the deliberate, sacred rhythm of Holy Week. What I was reminded of is that bread-making, especially sourdough bread, is a days-long process. It is s-l-o-w. It takes intentionality and purpose. It made me think of the slow food movement which promotes the slow cooking of traditional, cultural foods using local ingredients. Sounds amazing, doesn’t it? Bread is slow. It requires the nurture/feeding of a starter; it takes kneading and waiting for rise and then waiting some more. You cannot rush sourdough bread-making or you will not have bread. It’s as simple as that.

Another lovely aspect of bread-making is that it engages each of the human senses. The touch of hands is engaged in every step of this process, seeing the beauty of the bread as it becomes golden in its rise, the sounds the dough makes as you are kneading it and what the loaf sounds like when baking is complete, the glorious smell that pervades the entire house and finally the deliciousness of warm, fresh sourdough bread. It is a sensual process.

Finally, bread-making connects me. My sourdough starter, named Dolly, is very, very old and comes from a remote village in Tajikistan, a country in between Afghanistan and China. As I was baking, I thought about how many hands for how many hundreds of years used this particular strain of yeast to make bread and how many loaves nourished beloved ones of the bakers. I felt deeply connected to these bakers across the world who I have never met.

Suffice it to say, bread-making for Maundy Thursday is magical.

“Maundy” means “mandatum” in Latin and is translated as “command”, referring to Christ’s command before his death for us to love and serve each other.

I hope for a life that is full of love. Full of long conversations where time is lost track of; deep belly laughs; beloved ones who get closer to you when rough waters come and hold you up; dreams that -despite the odds- come true because of a village that makes it so; long, slow, intimate meals which turn into a whole afternoon of joyful indulgence, sunsets that quench the longing, and moments where I am completely, totally, delightfully surprised.

A life full of love requires paying attention or you will miss it.

I can’t wait to savor this bread tonight together and be thankful for Jesus’ radical love and for the ones who gather around the table trying to be people who follow that simple invitation: love God and love others as yourself.

The prerequisite to come to the table is only that you are hungry.

Let’s eat.

Creative Living in a Consumer World (Final – Week 6)

Field Guide Home Study

Creative Living in a Consumer World

“When I Look Up”

Have you ever gone to a restaurant, looked over at another table, and saw the occupants of that table each on their phones? It could beg the question: why go out for a family dinner anyway if we aren’t going to pay attention to one another? Maybe we don’t know the whole story there and it would not be fair to assume what it is, but it is good to think and talk about. In today’s society, the blessings of technological connectedness are many as they allow us to communicate more frequently and in larger quantities than ever before. IMG_1649In many ways, technology enables our staff at Belmont to keep us all connected! Even this Field Guide would be much more difficult to produce if we did not have the blessing of blogging!

Still yet, too much of anything can produce problems. Our phones can become our lords as we find ourselves more curious about or stressed over what is on them than the relationship(s) in front of us. Even on our days of sabbath, we may break sabbath to check our work email. This is acceptable given the expectations of the culture of high productivity that many of us operate within. But what are we missing when we are married to our phones? What emotions of pain or elation in our spouse or best friend or child do we miss when we quickly interact and then get back to our phones? What moments do we miss while we get away to take a call? Do our phones replace the time we could be spending in silence or prayer? It is good to think about these things and step back to observe our rhythms of technological use as we try to live creatively in this consumerist world.

Scripture Readings: Luke 19:1-6

Jesus entered Jericho and was passing through town. A man there named Zacchaeus, a ruler among tax collectors, was rich. He was trying to see who Jesus was, but, being a short man, he couldn’t because of the crowd. So he ran ahead and climbed up a sycamore tree so he could see Jesus, who was about to pass that way. When Jesus came to that spot, he looked up and said, “Zacchaeus, come down at once. I must stay in your home today.” So Zacchaeus came down at once, happy to welcome Jesus.

Luke 21:1-2: Looking up, Jesus saw rich people throwing their gifts into the collection box for the temple treasury. 2 He also saw a poor widow throw in two small copper coins worth a penny.

Questions to Consider: 

+What does a rhythm of balance regarding technology look like in your life? How is technology a blessing to you? How is it a hinderance?

+What boundaries do you have around leaving work at work? What boundaries do you need to create or edit?

Spiritual Practices:

+Center this thought in prayer, and post it on the fridge, phone or mirror:*

We worship the God who inhabits our world and indwells our lives.

We need not look up to find God, we need only to look around: within ourselves, beyond ourselves, into the eyes of another.

We need not listen for a distant thunder to find God, we need only listen to the music of life, the words of children, the questions of the curious, the rhythm of a heartbeat.

We worship the God who inhabits our world and who indwells our lives.

~ posted on the Presbyterian Church USA website. https://www.pcusa.org/site_media/media/uploads/peacemaking/pdf/mlk-resources.pdf

+Consider a “technology fast” wherein turn off the gadgets for a designated amount of time. Maybe you can only afford to do this for 30 minutes or maybe you have a day planned with your friends and family and you can commit to turning off your gadgets for that length of time. Whatever the length of time, reflect that evening on your experience. Did it stress you out to not be near your phone, or was it refreshing, or both?

+ Continue this week to make a space for solitude, away from your email and phone. Sit in silence and center on a word about God. For example, center your thoughts and prayer around the word “faithful” or another word that is meaningful to you- see what comes up when you do this.

Prayer for the Week:

God, we admit that there are times when we act wrongly, concentrating on the ‘bottom line’ and our survival, building up our own resources, and exercising inappropriate power.

Forgive us of putting our own comfort first, when the church becomes the center of our world and we fail to see beyond its walls.

Forgive us, O God, if our eyes have been so fixed on priorities of our own making, that we have failed to look for Jesus in the hungry, the thirsty, the stranger, the naked, the sick, those in prison and those awaiting the death penalty.

Forgive us, O God, of all the times we fail to touch people’s lives with acts of loving and caring, justice and mercy. Make our way, O God. We want to follow You.

*Adapted from a prayer written by Moira Laidlaw, posted on her Liturgies Online website.

 

 

Creative Living in a Consumer World (Week 5)

***Happy Halloween! May your day be filled with good memories of all the people who have come in and out of this season of your life!***

Field Guide Home Study: Week 5

Creative Living in a Consumer World

Sabbath 

Mercy, life can be busy, can’t it? There are so many good things to be a part of… so many places that we can put feet to our faith and be love in this world. Thanks be to God for the chance to learn to make room for others, to step back away from the power and control in a situation and share it instead. May we not tire in the work of love, or making space for others to be their best selves!

Still yet, busyness can really get to be a hum-dinger! The perpetual to-do list can often times be relentless. Sometimes the busyness of our lives can also hold part of our identity. If the busyness dicates some of our worth, then staying busy is necessary for us to feel important. IMG_5751

In our fast-paced, minute-to-win-it culture, the idea of longing for something can be a bit foreign. Everything has got to happen now. Pronto! We don’t long for things nearly as much because, well… we can have them right now. We speed up acquiring possessions. We speed up worship services. We speed up conversations. And by doing so, we can forget what it means to yearn… to long… to ache. Something that is surely coming but is not here yet.

It is odd to have to actually plan to slow down, to set a date on the calendar in which you block out time to stop and turn off the gizmos and gadgets. To be quiet. To just be. But without this time, we, as creatures of busyness, become unsettled. Where is the space to reflect, pray, and sit to listen to where God is leading our spirits? Where is a contemplative time which is required for us to arrive at thoughts that will be necessary for our future?

Taking a sabbath/ resting requires us to slow down, to stop: stop consuming, stop talking, stop worrying, stop making idols, stop running around… a time to stop. This, in all senses of the phrase, is an act of resistance.

Sabbath is resistance from a culture that attaches worth to productivity.

Scripture Readings: Genesis 1:14-15 (CEB Bible)

14 God said, “Let there be lights in the dome of the sky to separate the day from the night. They will mark events, sacred seasons, days, and years. 15 They will be lights in the dome of the sky to shine on the earth.” And that’s what happened.

Genesis 2:1-3

The heavens and the earth and all who live in them were completed. 2 On the sixth  day God completed all the work that God had done, and on the seventh day God rested from all the work that God had done. 3 God blessed the seventh day and made it holy, because on it God rested from all the work of creation.

Luke 22:39

Jesus left and made his way to the Mount of Olives, as was his custom, and the disciples followed him.

Questions to Consider: 

+As you read this, what tasks are on your mind to get done? How can you slow your mind and let it settle into a brief respite?

+Which persons in your life can you rest with?

+Will the world keep turning if you do not complete your to-do list?

+What are you trying to prove or who are you trying to prove yourself to?

Spiritual Practices:

+Center this thought in prayer, and post it on the fridge, phone or mirror:*

O God, it is hard for me to let go most times,

the squeeze I exert harms me and harms others.

So, God, loosen my grip on the grudges I am holding,

that I may risk the vulnerability of forgiveness.

God, loosen my grip on holding things which just aren’t mine to hold any longer,

that I may take up what is mine to hold.

God, loosen my grip on the fears that paralyze me,

that I may find liberation.

God, loosen my grip from the shame I hold deep down,

that I may know that I am not a mistake, but beloved.

God, loosen my grip from crippling anxiety,

that I may breathe deeply of Your comfort.

God open my eyes to this wild and wondrous world.

*Adapted from “Loosen My Grip” within “Guerrillas of Grace: Prayers for the Battle” by Ted Loder

+Consider planning a day this week where you engage in morning lauds (praise) and evening vespers (prayer). As the days shorten and the darkness takes up more space, create time in your day to rest from the to-do list, to reflect and remember you are and what your calling is. Are you doing that which makes you come alive and working to create space for others to do the same?

+ Make space for solitude this week. Community is wonderful, beautiful, and needed for our spirits. But balance it this week with intentionally being alone with no other task than just to sit, be still, and see what comes along.

Prayer for the Week:*

O God, who is greater than the most powerful forces in this world,

enable us to be still and know that You are God.

O God who answers out of the whirlwind of everyday life,

breathe in us Your Holy Spirit to strengthen, comfort, and guide us in the midst of the storm.

O still, small voice, speak to us this hour

that we might become makers of Your peace

in our homes, in our communities, in our world.

We pray all this in the name of the One who calmed the raging sea. Amen.

*Adapted from a post on My Redeemer Lives website

 

 

Creative Living in a Consumer World (Week 4)

Field Guide Home Study: Week 4

Creative Living in a Consumer World

Vision and Division 

We are well on our way in a four week journey of Creative Living in a Consumer World. It is a joy to be able to study and practice together ways to live alternatively to the consumerist norms. We get to practice loving our bodies instead of comparing them to popular media’s perception of what we “should” look like. We get to practice creating rather than consuming so much. We get to practice service to others rather than trying to get ahead of them. We get to learn what it means to have grace for each other because we act imperfectly and let one another down. We get to practice forgiveness rather than spending so much energy holding bitterness and resentment. We get to practice what it means to have vision even within division.

As a congregation who is dedicated to an inclusive gospel which has no barriers for persons who identify as LGBTQIA+ but instead celebrates these beautiful identities, we find ourselves at odds with some fellow United Methodists. How, in this uncomfortable space, are we to continue to have a vision within division? How do we work towards a beloved community who mutually belongs to one another, while we are in a divisive denominational struggle? Where do we put our hope?

Scripture Readings: Romans 14:1-5, 10, 16-19 (CEB Bible)

Welcome the person who is weak in faith—but not in order to argue about differences of opinion. One person believes in eating everything, while the weak person eats only vegetables. Those who eat must not look down on the ones who don’t, and the ones who don’t eat must not judge the ones who do, because God has accepted them. Who are you to judge someone else’s servants? They stand or fall before their own Lord (and they will stand, because the Lord has the power to make them stand). One person considers some days to be more sacred than others, while another person considers all days to be the same. Each person must have their own convictions. But why do you judge your brother or sister? Or why do you look down on your brother or sister? We all will stand in front of the judgment seat of God. And don’t let something you consider to be good be criticized as wrong. God’s kingdom isn’t about eating food and drinking but about righteousness, peace, and joy in the Holy Spirit. Whoever serves Christ this way pleases God and gets human approval. So let’s strive for the things that bring peace and the things that build each other up.

Spiritual Practices

+Center this thought in prayer, and post it on the fridge, phone or mirror:

We will not find justice in our apathy;
we will not find peace by our arguing;
we will not find love in being controlled by fear.
But, we will find You in the brokenness of the Bread;
we will find you in the gift of the Cup;
we will find you when we squeeze closer together,
making room at the Table for all your people.
O God of Community, may we find You. Amen

+Consider writing a prayer for someone you don’t particularly like. It may be easier to start with someone you don’t really care for and then work your way up to writing a prayer for someone that has hurt you deeply.

+Breath Prayer: choose one word/phrase to inhale and one word/ phrase to exhale. For example: inhale: “I am enough”/ exhale: “So, I can rest” Or, inhale: “I am forgiven”/ exhale: “I must forgive”

Prayer for the Week:

O God, bless those who make peace,
who bring no other hope but to see us belong to one another.

Bless those who, when we run out of room at the table, make a bigger table.

Bless those who welcome their enemy to the Table because they know the Table is not theirs to control.

Bless those who value humans over death- dealing systems.

Bless those who make peace,

Strengthen them, give them salve for their tired hands, rest for sore backs, and hope in their hearts.

Guard them from despair, as they draw the circle wide.

Bless those who make peace, O God. Amen.

 

Creative Living in a Consumer World (Week 3)

Field Guide Home Study: Week 3
Creative Living in a Consumer World
Caretakers of Creation 

Thus far on our now three week journey of Creative Living in a Consumer World, we have walked through doing the work of believing that we are made of sacred worth and named beloved, and training our eyes to see those truths in others. We also have been working into our tasks as co-creators. Because we have been created and so loved by our Creator, from our gratitude, we are invited to become co-creators of love in this world. This means that we do not prioritize or give privilege to insatiable consumption or competition to perpetually out-do others, but rather, our eyes are on creating a beloved community that functions with interconnectedness. xhW71IaFSp2NVhXf3+wDEw

To this end, theologian Sallie McFague, suggests that kenosis should be a part of our everyday living. Kenosis, she defines, is a “self-limitation so that others may have place and space to grow and flourish… [kenosis] is the way that God acts toward the world and the way people should act toward one another.”

A friend of mine taught me a South African phrase, which is Ubuntu. Ubuntu is a Xhosa word which represents a deep belief and practice of interconnectedness; it essentially means: I am only because you are. Think about who you are and who helped form you in becoming you. Whose shoulders do you stand on? It is very good to think about these things because it reminds us that we do not exist in a vacuum. We are because of so many people. So many people are because of us. We are made to be deeply interconnected with each other and with the One who created us to be so. We are also made to need and be needed by nonhuman creation. The way that we live deeply affects other parts of creation because we are so connected.

Genesis 2:15 reads: “The Lord God took the human and settled him in the garden of Eden to farm it and to take care of it.” This is a powerful command that we must take very seriously as co-creators. In his book, Soil and Sacrament: A Spiritual Memoir of Food and Faith, Fred Bahnson wrote: “Give back to the soil more than you take. An addendum to this credo might be this: goodness in people, like goodness in soil, must be preserved and nurtured. Give people more than you take. Tend not just the soil, but the soil people. Avad and shamar them.”

Sidenote: Avad and shamar are Hebrew words; they are found in God’s first command to the Adamah or “grounding”– the groundling should “avad and shamar” (Gen. 2:15) the fertile soil. It often gets translated to “till and keep” but a better translation is to serve the soil and watch/keep/preserve it.

Bahnson continues: “Give people more than you take. Tend not just the soil, but the soil people. Avad and shamar them, working and watching, serving and preserving them as if you own life depended on it. Which, of course, it does. Our role in creation is to offer everything back to God.”

Our role in creation is to offer everything back to God. May it be so.

Scripture Readings: (CEB Bible)

Psalm 8

Lord, our Lord, how majestic is your name throughout the earth!   You made your glory higher than heaven! From the mouths of nursing babies, you have laid a strong foundation because of your foes, in order to stop vengeful enemies. When I look up at your skies, at what your fingers made– the moon and the stars that you set firmly in place—what are human being that you think about them; what are human being that you pay attention to them? You’ve made them only slightly less than divine, crowning them with glory and grandeur. You’ve let them rule over your handiwork putting everything under their feet—all sheep and all cattle, the wild animals too, the birds in the sky, the fish of the ocean, everything that travels the pathways of the sea. Lord, our Lord, how majestic is your name throughout the earth!

Genesis 1:1-5, 2:15

1 When God began to create the heavens and the earth— 2 the earth was without shape or form, it was dark over the deep sea, and God’s wind swept over the waters— 3 God said, “Let there be light.” And so light appeared. 4 God saw how good the light was. God separated the light from the darkness. 5 God named the light Day and the darkness Night.

There was evening and there was morning: the first day.

2:15: The Lord God took the human and settled him in the garden of Eden to farm it and to take care of it.

Matthew 6:26‭-‬30

26 Look at the birds in the sky. They don’t sow seed or harvest grain or gather crops into barns. Yet your heavenly Creator feeds them. Aren’t you worth much more than they are? 27 Who among you by worrying can add a single moment to your life? 28 And why do you worry about clothes? Notice how the lilies in the field grow. They don’t wear themselves out with work, and they don’t spin cloth. 29 But I say to you that even Solomon in all of his splendor wasn’t dressed like one of these. 30 If God dresses grass in the field so beautifully, even though it’s alive today and tomorrow it’s thrown into the furnace, won’t God do much more for you, you people of weak faith?

Questions to Consider:

  • How will we handle this holy assignment of God, our Creator, entrusting the planet to us?  What sort of stewards will we be? What do we owe the tigers and turtles that the Creator declares as part of a supremely good work of art and engineering? What legacy will our consumption leave for our children, grandchildren, and great grandchildren?
  • What practices do you engage in which may be inconvenient but you do them for the betterment of others?
  • What does it mean to be responsible for creation? How easy could it be to pass it off, saying “someone more qualified will handle this”?
  • What does it look like in your life for you to create space for others to live?
  • How does living kenotically (self-emptying) change you? Does it detract from your life negatively or does it add beauty to your life?

Spiritual Practices:

+Center this thought in prayer, and post it on the fridge, phone or mirror:

Created and known,
invited to co-create with our Maker
Creation cries out for our attention,
we have work to do.

+At the dinner table with your family or with a friend, consider the food that you are eating. Do you know where it came from? Think about the farmers who farmed what you are eating for dinner. Consider their livelihoods and stories. You may not know them, but if they are growing the food you are eating, you are connected to them.

+If you can, make time to watch a sunrise or sunset this week. Soak it in. Consider how deeply you are connected to the earth and how much the creation is connected to you because we share the same Creator.

+Consider practices that you can add or eliminate from your life because of your responsibility to care for creation. Dedicate these practices as holy practices for they honor God in doing them and help you put feet to your faith. Consider how the community of Belmont UMC can encourage each other in these practices. Are you part of a small group at Belmont who could share these holy commitments together?

Prayer for the Week:*

Creator God, we thank you for the beauty of your Creation, and for giving us the privilege of caring for it. We confess that we have not cared for the earth with the self-sacrificing and nurturing love that you require of us. We mourn the broken relationships in creation. We repent for our part in causing the current environmental crisis that has led to climate change.

Faithful God, show us how to be faithful with the creation you gave us. Help us get creative in caring for it. Change us for the better, O God, as we seek to be faithful in this way.

Loving God, help us to turn our lives around to be people of restoration. Help us build just relationships among human beings and with the rest of creation. Help us to live sustainably, rejecting consumerism and the exploitation of creation.

God of justice, give us courage and persistence to work for justice for those most affected by environmental degradation and climate change.

God of mercy, hear the cry of the poor who are already suffering and will continue to suffer water and food shortages and who will be displaced by climate change.

Creator God, give us Your Spirit to work together to restore Your creation and to pass on a safe environment and climate to our children and grandchildren. Let our care for creation be our act of worship and obedience to You. Your kingdom come, and Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Amen.

*Adapted from Pray Act 8 Days posted on the Micah Challenge website.

 

Creative Living in a Consumer World (Week 2)

Creative Living in a Consumer World (Week 2)

New Creations

 If you missed week one, check it out here!

We have heard the Good news:

God loves us. We have deep, sacred worth. We have been named “beloved.”

Sometimes these truths are very hard to believe. In her book, Bird by Bird: Some Instructions on Writing and Life, Anne Lamott writes: “You have to make mistakes to find out who you aren’t. You take the action, and the insight follows: You don’t think your way into becoming yourself.”1 Sometimes in order to come to believing we are beloved, we just have to start living into it. The “living into” part takes some faithfulness because it isn’t easy, but eventually, it becomes more of a rhythm. Over and over and over and over, we live as new creations, beloved of God.

So then, if anyone is in Christ, that person is part of the new creation. The old things have gone away, and look, new things have arrived!

If we are new creations in Christ, then we cannot hoard God’s love, grace or forgiveness; we are compelled to be conduits of divine love in the world. We have a call to create rather than consume, to slow and see beauty rather than speed by it, and to be persons who choose to forgive those who have harmed us because we know that holding onto the pain becomes toxic bitterness.

The creative process of becoming a new creation never ends. The old stuff is always passing away because we have so many complex layers as humans; we are always being transformed, sanctified. Thanks be to God for this wonderful gift and may it be so as we live as new creations of Christ!

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Scripture Readings: (CEB Bible)

2 Corinthians 5:16-21

17 So then, if anyone is in Christ, that person is part of the new creation. The old things have gone away, and look, new things have arrived! 18 All of these new things are from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and who gave us the ministry of reconciliation. 19 In other words, God was reconciling the world to himself through Christ, by not counting people’s sins against them. Christ has trusted us with this message of reconciliation.

20 So we are ambassadors who represent Christ. God is negotiating with you through us. We beg you as Christ’s representatives, “Be reconciled to God!” 21 God caused the one who didn’t know sin to be sin for our sake so that through Christ we could become the righteousness of God. So then, from this point on we won’t recognize people by human standards. Even though we used to know Christ by human standards, that isn’t how we know Christ now.

Genesis 1:1-5 & 31

When God began to create the heavens and the earth— 2 the earth was without shape or form, it was dark over the deep sea, and God’s wind swept over the waters— 3 God said, “Let there be light.” And so light appeared. 4 God saw how good the light was. God separated the light from the darkness. 5 God named the light Day and the darkness Night.

There was evening and there was morning: the first day.

31 God saw everything God had made: it was supremely good. There was evening and there was morning: the sixth day.

Questions to Consider:

  • What does it mean to live as a new creation? Where do you need reconciliation in your own life? Who do you need to seek reconciliation with? What shame is keeping you from doing this? Who might help with this and what simple steps might it take?
  • What burden do you hold that is no longer yours to hold? What are you counting against people. Is that fair? Do you know enough to make that call?
  • In the most literal and practical way, what does your life look like this week as a new creation?
  • On a larger level, what is your life mission as a new creation in Christ?  What do you long to create with your life? What is it that makes you come alive?
  • If we are new creations because of God’s forgiveness and grace, then how are you extending forgiveness and grace into the world that others may come to know it?

Spiritual Practices:

+Center this thought in prayer, and post it on the fridge, phone or mirror:

The old things have gone away, and look, new things have arrived!

Reconciled and given the ministry of reconciliation,

We go as ambassadors of reconciliation who represent Christ to ourselves, each other, and our world.

+At the dinner table with your family or with a friend, share a story about a way in which you have grown emotionally or spiritually. For example, how has your life story changed in the last 10 years? What, in you, is new?

+As autumn slowly comes, take a walk outside and notice the old leaves passing away. Consider the seasonality of life and wonder how living seasonally can help you let go of the things which are no longer yours to hold.

+Consider what heavy burdens you have. Write it/them on a sheet of paper. Center yourself in prayer as you work to give those to God. You may consider having a fire and burning these pieces of paper as a symbolic way of releasing these burdens (Safety first!).

+As new creations, we are still responsible for the harm that we have done and part of being a new creation is seeking reconciliation. What reconciliation do you need to seek this week? Maybe it is reconciliation with God, or with yourself, or with another human being?

Prayer for the Week:

Reconciling Christ, bless my efforts to bring about reconciliation.

Give me the strength to persevere without counting the hurts,

and to find within myself the capacity to keep on loving.

Give me the grace to be able to stand in the middle of situations,

and to be a conduit for the deep listening

which can lead to healing and forgiveness.

Help me to conduct myself with dignity,

giving and expecting respect, moving from prayer to action,

and from action back again into prayer.

Grant that I may be so grounded in Your love,

that my security is not threatened if You show me a

better way to live as a new creation.

Reconciling Christ, bless me and bless all who engage

in the sacred work of envisioning new wholeness,

and bringing people and nations together.  Amen.2

Footnote citations:

1. Anne Lamott, Bird by Bird: Some Instructions on Writing and Life (Anchor Publishing, 1995), pg. 9.

2. Adapted from a prayer written by Ann Siddall, in Lent to Easter liturgies: Year C. Posted on the website of the Stillpoint Spirituality Centre.  http://stillpoint.unitingchurchsa.org.au/

 

Autumn Dusk

A southern autumn finally makes its way into the hickory, maple, and oak forests,

we’ve been waiting. Longing for it.

Yet, it has been lingering — barely ready to descend – – – until now.

It brings a soft glow that feels like a warm blanket when you’re cold,

you know how it feels, and you need it.

 

It calls to us softly – – – slow down, slow down – – – winter is coming.

It holds us after a deep and wide year,

A year that has torn our hearts open,

until we come face to face with love,

Are we going to love or are we just going to say we’re going to love?

There’s no time for false faces in autumn. (Except for maybe Halloween)

 

Is love alive or isn’t it?

Love is too big, too pervasive, too good to fake.

you know how it feels and you need it.

Is love alive or isn’t it?

 

 

Blue Hill Prayer

Here in the blue hills of Asheville,

I was anointed this morning by the needles of the White Pine,

falling upon the crest of my head.

The smell of Rosemary Geranium filled me.

The wind flowing through the trees, kissing them,

created a symphony of sound,

drawing me into its mountainous song.

My heart swelled with love for these connections with creation.

They are family to me.

Thanks be to You, God, the Creator of all.

 

The Art of Mindfulness

Have you ever had the experience wherein you were driving home from a busy day of work/ school/ or other draining activity and you realize that you arrived at home, but don’t remember getting there? It’s as if the body went into auto pilot mode. This most frequently happens for me when I’m conducting my morning routine. Did I actually brush my teeth? I can’t remember. What did I wear yesterday? No idea.

I realize that this is likely a coping mechanism to allow the mind to rest, but I also have experienced this “auto pilot” to be detrimental to my everyday life. A problem arises when I start going on autopilot and actually miss living.

Last summer was an eye-opening experience for me of realizing that I was dealing with an incredible amount of stress and was anxious and generally unhealthy as a result. After some time reflecting on that experience, I realize that there were several things in my life which did not resonate with who I am, what makes me come alive, and how I live my ethics/ core values. During the summer, I knew I needed to take some serious reflection time. I need to examine all the “yes'” that I had committed to without much thought. I had just finished a biology degree and was headed into seminary, so I figured it was as good a time as any to examine myself.

So I enrolled in a mindfulness group. At first, I had absolutely no idea what I was doing and wondered what I had just gotten myself into. It turned out to be an incredibly enlightening experience. I realized that a great deal of my time was spent worrying about unrealistic worries; I learned to name these thoughts as “frequent flyer” thoughts. Part of the harm of these frequent flyer thoughts is that they took away from me actually living in the moment and enjoying it for everything that it was. By “living in the moment,” I mean actually tasting the food that I ate, feeling the joy of a hug, committing myself to a conversation without a totally unrelated running narrative going through my head, listening to the crickets singing, stopping to bathe in a sunset, giving attention to so many beautiful and good things that I have in my life.

When I first started trying to be mindful last summer, I literally challenged myself to pay attention to how it feels for a toothbrush to go over my teeth, how a hot shower feels, what summer squash & onions smell like cooking, to say a prayer and really mean it, and how a field of lightning bugs takes me back to childhood. Just like training muscles to lift weights, it took practice and continual attention. But it paid off for me.

For starters, I realized that I did not enjoy Captain Crunch at all.

And I really, really don’t fancy sugar in my coffee. No, thanks.

This is important.

Secondly, I began realizing that my energy shifted from being anxious to grateful. And I was able to gain much more perspective on things. I analyzed where I spent my time and was my time given to life-giving or energy-draining opportunities.

I think it also helped that I surrounded myself with folks who supported me in this mission and who also did this work themselves.

I still experience the “frequent flyer” thoughts and autopilot moments, but when I do, I am able to name them as such and give them way less time and weight. I feel more and I don’t let autopilot guide my relationships. This may seem small, but for me, it has been life-changing.

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Have you experienced “auto pilot” mode? If so, what have you found helpful?

 

 

Fully Alive

“The glory of God is a human being fully alive”
― Saint Irenaeus

In a culture where we are all trying to figure this life out… trying to figure out how to live presently, to feel everything we need to feel in this moment, what does St. Irenaeus mean in saying “be fully alive?” Is it reaching a goal? Is it being completely present, in mind, body, and spirit, with the moment you are in? Does it mean that you are doing and living things that fully resonate with you? Does it mean that you are finding beauty even when your circumstances say there is none to be found? Does it mean you are living a life of consciousness and subsequently, activism? Or does it mean a little something different to everyone?

I wonder if God is most glorified when God’s creation is living passionately, with purpose and meaning. Navigating this world of pain, loss, scarcity, and betrayal, it seems like living fully alive is a miracle. Surviving is a miracle. Love is a miracle.

It takes courage to live fully alive. It takes vulnerability to show up. It takes gumption to go into a profession because you love it, not because it brings in sizable paychecks. To live simply when those surrounding you aren’t. To get off of your phone and give someone your full attention. To go down a path that no one else understands, but you know it is the path which resonates with you. It’s the way your intuition is guiding.

How do you care about your brother and sister when it’s all you can do to look out for yourself and your family? When it’s all you can do to survive?

Maybe fully alive means this. That when certainty is evasive and you aren’t promised that you’ll be taken care of… you aren’t promised your health… you aren’t promised your finances… you show up anyway. You show up and you bring a glass of water to your neighbor. You keep painting, keep writing, keep studying, keep singing. You go into ministry even when the church is declining. You say “I love you” first even when you don’t know if the one you are in love with will say it in return. You advocate for equality even though you know people see your actions as heretical. You call your kid who has broken your heart, just to tell her how much you love her. You choose to believe you can do the thing others have said you can’t.

In the ambiguous fear, in the uncertainty, and most of all, in the skepticism,

You show up.

And you breathe the breath of being fully alive. Glory be to God.

Tell me a story of how you showed up.